Kindness and gratitude: the unexpected gifts of cancer

By on Sep 17, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer, Spring | 1 comment

I have always maintained that we always get what we want, but it never seems to come in the packaging we expect – never more so than with kindness.

Hello laughter, my old friend

By on Sep 11, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer, Spring | 5 comments

His laughter was infectious. We smiled. We snorted. Within half a minute we too were howling out the kind of belly laugh that made our eyes stream and our sides ache.

The other brother

By on Sep 7, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer, Spring | 8 comments

2017 should really have been his year. He started high school in January. It was a big enough school that perhaps he’d be able to build an identity beyond being the quieter, shyer younger brother. Then, barely two weeks in, Josh – his older brother – was diagnosed with stage-four cancer.

There will be no funeral today

By on Sep 6, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer, Spring | 9 comments

Acute fatigue – sleeping for most of the day – is the most common symptom of end stage cholangiocarcinoma.

The wrong definition of strong

By on Aug 31, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer | 5 comments

I’ve been told I am strong more times than I can count this year. Thank you.

The thing is, though, that I don’t feel strong at all. On the best days I feel like I’m doing what any other parent would do. On the worst days…well on the worst days, I long for the oblivion of sleep only to find myself staving off midnight’s monsters whilst thirsting for first-light.

A trip to the dietician

By on Aug 30, 2017 in Blog Posts, Cancer | 5 comments

“Mostly, I like eating sour worms.” Josh told the dietician. His tone was half-way between a confession and a challenge.

On the way here I’d shared my fear that I’d have to defend my any-calorie-is-a-good-calorie stance.

The dietician smiled and looked down at her notes.